Solitude

I am alone

because I choose to be alone

I can find a good price for my labour

but the more I labour the more I think

that I am responsible for the poverty of the world

so i don’t work

and sleep and read and write alone

i hope to return to the world

when i have found the solution

this is such height of arrogance,

i know

who has in the vast history of mankind

found a solution?

only madmen of the most crazy kind,

i know

i am aware of the deep complementarity

that any theory and any practice must have

but it is not as easy as it seem

the great theoreticians 

say little about practice

and the great practitioners

find the theory too abstract

what is the point of theorising about God

when he is found hard-working

in the field, in the Sun

but the hard-work is not paid well

it is the way of the world

i know it from experience

it is cunning and cleverness

that takes you to obscene luxuries

you may carry bricks for days on end

for the highway or the restuarant

that you build

still not able to afford

a car to drive on the highway

or a meal in the restaurant

i live alone

like a parasite on other’s work

because the white-collar work exploits

and the blue-collar work is exploited

and that are the only two options

if you are a normal-obedient person

so much has been theorised by bleeding hearts

so little has been achieved in practice

for revolution is a risky business

that everyone is so uncomfortable to attempt

so i live alone

hopeless and penniless

writing a blog that no-one reads

rearranging letters to invert

the meaning, the logic of the world,

the market, the capital

we know

technology is killing the ecosystems,

the habitat, the environment

and we are told

we need more technology,

more robots and more automation

to cross this dark passage in the human hisotry

theory tells me

these are the twin struggles

the planetary and the social

and the logic of the capital tells us

that more trade and more markets

are the solutions

surely there must be a limit to this folly!

we replaced the invisible God

with the invisible hand of market

complacent in selfish self-interest

that everything will manage itself

only if we had more markets

it is no wonder

that many find it strange and absurd

and unable to reconcile

greed with common sense

slip into illness and depression

we have long been guided

by the logic of market

it has made us more insecure,

more vulnerable and more cynic

can we give care of home a chance

to heal humanity

i do not believe in more laws

and more regulations

but I believe in human

who has seen the light of love

and only love can deliver us

from here to there

from pain to joy

from negation to affirmation

enough of the band-aids

enough of the patchworks

let us for once try to be human

and have the courage to be in solitude

than contribute to the misery and exploitation

that is my argument

that is my wisdom!